A flying unicorn

Capturing the emotion of the moment isn't too hard. The expressing bit is the conundrum.

Looking from the outside, it can be termed ludicrous, silly, stupid, pathetic....well, you get the point.

It's only through experience that it can be truly understood.  After all, to make a difference and defy the odds and cliches, one has to be unconventional - "uncool".

Is it the misconception of a passing moment,... or the commencement of a beautiful and inspiring lifelong experience?

Suddenly it all makes sense. Not to the rest of the world of course.

The anticipation of the next moment makes even the most patient soul watch the clock like a hawk stalking prey.  Experiencing the moment is like watching a well written script - too good to be true - surreal.

Like that dream you don't want to wake up from.  Like that childhood memory you want to re-live over and over again.  Like a cool summer breeze sunbathing along the Indian Ocean.....

A beautiful mind, intellectually gifted, a refreshing soul, new found belief in the elements thought to be of a bygone era...setting the unconventional yet coveted standard....

I've seen so may planets dancing, I've witnessed talking dragons and broke leprechauns, but never had I experienced a flying unicorn. It's absolutely fa-a-ntastic!

We Alright

Life get's hard sometimes but you know it's gonna be all right
Not gonna run and we not givin' up, no, we gonna fight
If anybody ask how we are let them know that we all right
But when the time comes you gonna shine so bright, let them see your light
KEEP YOUR HEAD UP!

Rest In Peace

Remember Uncle Joe and good ol Aunt Sheila

Way back in 04 when i was a mofo

Tony brushed shoulders with Joe on Solomons' dancefloor

thirty years Tonys senior but eyes on the same gal

Who won - obvious, Joe's car cost 3 times Tony's.

Had dude's lil gal asking "Who's Tony?"

Word : my nucca Tony tony couldnt take this

"i Love her tj" he said " what imma do"

Im thinking "Gawd Damn Joe, you did it again"

Aunt Sheila, she knows, she forgive him again

Been too many weeks since Sheila's "lil friend" came to town

Routine check at the doctors, She pregnant again :

But wait

Doctor Silas aint smiling like before,

Gosh, thats a frown, whats wrong this time

"Sheila dear, we need to do more blood tests"

"white blood cell count low, Im sorry it aint looking good"

A bit later its confirmed its HIV

"In a few more months it'll be full blown AIDS, Im sorry" as aunt Sheila wept

Uncle Joe is quiet, knows its his fault

"Lucky Tony" I thought - when the news came in

Damn, Aunt Sheila, Im sorry, but am lost for words

Tears trickling down her face

My Phat Farm t her napkin

No words came out, i just held her tight

"Lets say a prayer" I said " God aint blind"

"You good people aunt, I cant accept this - this aint the end"

"Charisma" group meetings on Fridays at church

Uncle Joe - he coming with us

Good Lawd, HIV brings you back down to Earth

Father Gabriel prays - we do rosary everyday

They say, Father Pachibora is coming to town

Father P comes, and lays hands on Aunt and Uncle

Years pass, aunt and uncle still here and looking fit

A trip to the doctors, What, theres no more HIV

A happy family, we got everyone smiling again

But WAIT

Uncle Joe, is coming home late again

Damnit, this nucca be cheating again.,

Running around town - yes He lying again

The HIV is back again

At least this time Sheila had him strapping it in

Joe had a 2nd shot and threw it down the drain

Good folk still meeting

Prayers on everyday

But Father P aint coming again

"I gave you another chance, and u wasted it away" God said

"You cant throw away the gift of life

nucca you take it or leave it"

So Uncle Joe's no-more

another relative gone, another tatoo,

another name sprayed on the car back window for a month

Another family shattered in tears

another night on my knees and another name added to my prayers

Another name chanted when we pour out the liquor..

DAMN!

Rest In Peace.

A Story told in so many stories : edited version

It's musical - thats what it is. You'd have to understand to understand, cuz if you dont understand, then you wont understand. An open mind helps. Prejudice dosen't help. Google might come in handy. Urban dictionary probably more than should be needed. Banter, banter, banter, subliminal shots, sarcasm,

The standards set were too high - unattainable and unrealistic some complained - out of this world some said - foolish and stupid they said - naivety was the conclusion. Or was it just a fear of the possibility of achievement of set standards and therefore a non-conforming mindset - OUTCAST?hmmm??

#nowplaying Tupac - Unconditional Love

"its hard to live this life without God, so we must ask for forgiveness"

i believe - I know some are shocked cuz I dont go on about it - but yep - staunch Catholic here..

"perhaps its just a fantasy"

like U2 sang "stuck in a moment, that you cant get out of"..and not necessarily because you cant get out of it - but because it is the best moment you have ever experienced and you dont want to get out of it...

"You must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark"

For you will always be in my heart. It's Unconditional Love. Sometimes it seems as if it cant possibly get any worse - and it does - and then it seems like its the end of the world...until that lil glimmer of light shines through the crack..like a rose growing from a crack in the concrete..

"Eternally my mission is to be more than just a rap musician"

brings back that whole catch 22 notion - nothing ever turns out how we want it to..and we play the cards we're dealt. Cant always get a royal flush now can we. Make the best of the things we have.

#nowplaying "touched The Sky - Dennis Ferrer"

I touched the sky because of you. If she/he makes you feel ike you touched the sky - like Impossible is nothing....she's/he's a keeper..oh, and if "she" loves football, or at least watches it with you..a keeper (lol)..i had to say that..

#nowplaying MeatLoaf - I Would do anything for Love

..but I wont do that..and that's give up...

So my obsession with music continues - from Saosin down to Bob Marley..faithless to Tupac..Kenny G to Scooter..every bit of music made. Why? Because music is the universal language (forget football)...and wherever you go, whatever you do, whoever you meet - they can understand some form of music - so if you cant express yourself - but are musically endowed, then it can make things easier..

Impossible is nothing!

If music be the food of love - play on! If music be the food of LIFE, make more....

music for thought - Just to Be Different - Joe Budden.

Catch 22

Sometimes it's worth a shot - sometimes it isn't. Sometimes it burns - sometimes its too cold. Sometimes it hurts - sometimes it's too good to be true. Sometimes it seems like you've finally got to the point where you want to be - till you get to the point where you're meant to be.

Everyday there's a new path, a new road, totally oblivious to your "plan". We sit down and decide after this, then that - but after this - that is never part of the options. It's always if's and when. The notion that one day it'll work out and be like we want it to be is nothing but a facade - a dream that keeps us from being miserable facing reality.

However - the earlier we face reality - the earlier we can achieve true happiness. There is blind conformity and acceptance of living a dream - or facing reality and achieving happiness through the simplest of thigs - the fact that few if any of our dreams ever come true - we gotta live with what we have, accpet reality, and find a way to achieve happiness from the cards we're played. Life is what you make it - after you accpet what it makes you to be.

It's a catch 22 - either you lose or you lose. Gotta find a way to achieve joy through the losses.

And smile. It wont kill you. Whatever you going through - it could be worse.

TJ

Be who you are - Respectfully.

Ever realised how everyday we seem to be doing things we are generally expected to do, or by the set rules and conforming to "accepted" standards? My goal in life is to leave a memory-even if it were to last for just an instant-something that no-1 else has done, or do things no-1 else will do, or approach things in a unique way. Failure is a result of following standards set by other people who went out of their way to find what is comfortable for themselves.

Now the sooner we realise that each individual is different, then the sooner we can be able to stop for a second, make our own rules, and live life according to our own set principles. We need to find what is comfortable for ourselves, what makes things easy for YOU. Who says what is appropriate to wear for what occasion, who says what is appropriate to say/do, who says what is the best way to treat any set situation, who says when, how, why, with whom.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who matter don't mind - and those who mind don't matter! I am not in this world to live up to other people's expectations, nor do I feel that the world must live up to mine.

Respect is the most important aspect of humanity. If you have respect for someone/something, that'll determine your response/actions towards that element. All we need to make this world a better place is respect. This builds integrity and honesty, and everything else is a by-product.

tj

To believe or not to believe?

I don't get "some" of this new age bullshit (some makes sense, but some is just bullocks). Pardon my french, but really - whats wrong with believing. The rewards of believing is eternal life - and the results of non believing is..nothing - we die and turn into dust. So if people wanna live their lives as believers, let them be and if they are right then they will reap the fruits - if they are not , they'll just turn into dust and that's it. Whereas, trying to change believers so they can "enjoy" the "worldly crap", if it turns that that's right then yea, dust ., coo, but if it's wrong - unending burning in hell. What the flip. Let people be. They wanna believe, let them be, live your life the way you want to. if they try change you - its ok, say no, but being a reasonable human being, one should know there is the possibility of them being wrong right. So before trying to change someone, why not consider the consequences of our beliefs being wrong.

if those who believe turn out to be right, then the reward is endless joy in paradise, if they wrong - nothing- if the non-believers turn out to be right - nothing, but if they wrong - HELL.

They say people scare you into believing. YES YES YES. Ever think that some people do believe in AIDS?

Think about it. Would you rather be wrong..

I'm just saying....

tj

Love, Lotus, Soul.

he was a young grown dude,

a lil too grown for his age, he had it all going on

a fresh, brand new start,the closet was clean

not that it was too dirty from the start,

but it was a real new start

..

she was a young lil gal,

just outta her teens but seems her mind was still there,

she had it all going on,

sum lil old dudes, few grown old dudes,

couple lil young dudes, so his was a brand new style,

something new going on

something fresh for the book,

she got her game on day 1,

....

young grown dude smitten, forgot the set standards,

she had him all glowing at first,

seemed he had her all glowing too, but was it all an act?

he thinks he in love, cuz she say she think she in love - you need to slow down dude, dont rush..

someone should have told him then..

he got his swag back/on now,

trying hard just to fit in, with the lil cool dudes,

trying too hard to impress, got lost just right there,

hypocritical, character suicide,

....

now he just stuck back trying to rebuild,

while she be running wit them other dudes, or maybe got another thinking they in love..

you need to slow down lil dude, don't rush, somebody just told you now

...

"She want you more if you didn't care for her, but since you care for her, she dont care for you. Don't spoil the good person with a good soul for her."

Don't sell yourself to fall in love.