A Story told in so many stories : edited version

It's musical - thats what it is. You'd have to understand to understand, cuz if you dont understand, then you wont understand. An open mind helps. Prejudice dosen't help. Google might come in handy. Urban dictionary probably more than should be needed. Banter, banter, banter, subliminal shots, sarcasm,

The standards set were too high - unattainable and unrealistic some complained - out of this world some said - foolish and stupid they said - naivety was the conclusion. Or was it just a fear of the possibility of achievement of set standards and therefore a non-conforming mindset - OUTCAST?hmmm??

#nowplaying Tupac - Unconditional Love

"its hard to live this life without God, so we must ask for forgiveness"

i believe - I know some are shocked cuz I dont go on about it - but yep - staunch Catholic here..

"perhaps its just a fantasy"

like U2 sang "stuck in a moment, that you cant get out of"..and not necessarily because you cant get out of it - but because it is the best moment you have ever experienced and you dont want to get out of it...

"You must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark"

For you will always be in my heart. It's Unconditional Love. Sometimes it seems as if it cant possibly get any worse - and it does - and then it seems like its the end of the world...until that lil glimmer of light shines through the crack..like a rose growing from a crack in the concrete..

"Eternally my mission is to be more than just a rap musician"

brings back that whole catch 22 notion - nothing ever turns out how we want it to..and we play the cards we're dealt. Cant always get a royal flush now can we. Make the best of the things we have.

#nowplaying "touched The Sky - Dennis Ferrer"

I touched the sky because of you. If she/he makes you feel ike you touched the sky - like Impossible is nothing....she's/he's a keeper..oh, and if "she" loves football, or at least watches it with you..a keeper (lol)..i had to say that..

#nowplaying MeatLoaf - I Would do anything for Love

..but I wont do that..and that's give up...

So my obsession with music continues - from Saosin down to Bob Marley..faithless to Tupac..Kenny G to Scooter..every bit of music made. Why? Because music is the universal language (forget football)...and wherever you go, whatever you do, whoever you meet - they can understand some form of music - so if you cant express yourself - but are musically endowed, then it can make things easier..

Impossible is nothing!

If music be the food of love - play on! If music be the food of LIFE, make more....

music for thought - Just to Be Different - Joe Budden.

Sunday Jazz - Terri Shaltiel

So last night, Sunday, I went to my first live jazz show since I been here. Hadn't found any places, probably cuz maybe i was focused on other things and not really looking for a good chill place. Terri Shaltiel and Jon Taylor were playing.

I must admit, the lady is talented. The venue was probably the worst "club", "lounge", or whatever you can call it i have ever been to - EVER - but the music was beautiful. And the people there - simple people, wasn't too full, so met everybody, and what was inspiring was how people with very little treasure their moments and can give you such a beautiful evening. No fancy dress to impress themes were up - the musicians were talking to the public, the promoter was some lady who owns the Inn, and the mood in the place was just too good. Makes one realise how grateful we should be for the things we have. There are some out there who have less, but are embracing that, loving life, doing something about it instead of mourning about how unfortunate they are - impossible is nothing. She (Terri) performed with Amy Winehouse before - the humility in the voice as she spoke - no trying to be the "superstar" - but once the drums started going, the keyboard flowing, the base guitar, and Jon Taylor on the sax...there was no doubting how much of a superstar she could be. The lady is blessed, and yes, the lady can sing.

I may have doubts about going back to that place (unless Terri is back of course), but it was a lesson learnt. Love life, love those who love you, and be appreciative. Do not take anything for granted - and whatever you may be going through - someone else is going through worse.

tj

Everything happens for a reason

Everyday experiences open our eyes to new realities, and sometimes its a reality we dont wanna face. It aint always easy accepting the situation as it is. The secret lies in thinking about

tomorrow. So many of us, most if not all, have embrace the pain brought by life's disappointments, and have wasted valid time crying over spilt milk and failing to realise the situation as a lesson. One of my favourite tracks is a song by Joe Budden..no it's not pump it up, lol, called "For a reason"...

to quote the master

"...if I never got stabbed, wouldn't remember Veronica's wrath

Standing in the shower looking at the scab

I wouldn't know the hints of a stick-up kid

If I ain't have that short stint as a stick-up kid

If dude never tried to kill me, I mighta went numb

To all the bullshit that goes on where I'm from

And if I never went to jail, wouldn't needed a bail

Woulda probly went on to graduate from Yale

Woulda been a prosecutor standing in the court of law

But then that goes against everything he stands for

And if I never met Glo, how would I really know

All the shit that comes with, when you dealing with a ho

See it is what it is to be

Or it is what it is, at least that's what it is to me

And so if I could ever go back in history

I wouldn't change shit, I'd leave it all just to be..."

(OR lEAVE IT ALL TO KARMA ha ha ha)

Its life's situations that teach us, and as long as we take everything as a lesson, and with a deeper meaning like it has, then we can have a life with less stress and more appreciation of the things we have. I especially love the line "If I never met Glo, how would I really know, All the shit that comes with when you dealing with a whore"...Situations arise and events happen, that teach you..Become a better judge of character, be able to read the sings, when Cumulonimbus clouds are up, chances are it will rain - if you never been rained on after a bout of cumulonimbus clouds, then you never know, but once you get rained on, you know. So next time you see cumulonimbus clouds (meet another Glo), you run and realise its about to rain..instead of catching an umbrella, the wind might blow that away...

So no matter what you happens today, tomorrow i s a brighter day. You are wiser, you have been exposed to new situations and new circumstances and the reason behind the mishap is coming, it's all about patience, acceptance and appreciation. Its alright to shed a tear (well, maybe not for me tho lol), but long as you realise that tomorrow is a brighter day cuz of today's mishaps.

tj

Good Jazz! Sipho Gumede - Gabriel's Garden

Had to share on of my favourite Jazz tracks (well, there's hundreds I love really lol), but here's what I'm listening to at the moment..Sipho Gumede, South African jazz musician.

Mood music huh? I remember my first encounter with Jazz was more of it being forced on me at an early age, but i think maybe just the first two instances are the only times I felt forced to listen to it. I fell in love immediately. Jazz and Phil Collins (back in those days the Jazz was Early Klugh, the likes of Wishful Thinking, Calypso Getaway and Tropical Legs). I admit, had it not been for those early musical experiences, I'd probably be krazy about 50Sense(lol), dancehall ( I appreciate it, just not mad about it..I don't get the message..its too shallow for me), Soulja Boy and the rest of them fake musicians out there...

So some say i act too old for my age, some say I'm boring(lol), some say I'm too serious (well, life takes me seriously too)....I say I appreciate the things in life most people neglect..like the origins of all music - Jazz (or the Blues as it was known back in the day).

Hope you enjoyed the track...

tj